unspoken word

Its childish to say
But I maintain
You started it
Well
I started at first
The first time
When we first
From the first
When I was
Fearless
Chaotic

I was a whirlwingd
Lashing around your
Carefully composed
Rationalism
You were/are much younger than me
But it was I who was less mature
With all my throwaway passion
And even the most sturdy foundations
Can shake
When forces are great enough

I remember the first night
When we first
Our first
Embrace
I flew into your arms
Neither of us could stand straight
We were drunk and giggling
When our mouths danced with each other
And we rolled along the wall
And broke apart smiling

And then there was
Next after next
Until I worried we were
Becoming something
So I withdrew
More than a little
And by the time
I was brave enough
To go back
You had closed our chapter
Fear can be contagious

There was a great break
Before the next next
I couldn’t say how we
Got back to it
But we did
And this thing we’d hidden away
Was growing
In spite of ourselves

Maybe I opened the box
I shouldn’t’ have
But I have this way of doing that
I have little resistance to temptation
“no” was always a word
I struggled to say

And somehow this reminds me
Of a non sequitor
I once uttered
“I’ll kiss almost anyone, its what follows that I’m more selective of”